homesick :(

hey peeps,,

not really a happy post lah,,

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa T.T

eck cuti start en en,,

tp sy x cuti,,wuuwuwuw,,

sy kene g camp,,

mmg cam nk g pown camp ney,,

camp tuh pown bkan paksaan,,

so cam,,rela,,

tp tp tp,,nk balek jgak,,

homesick awww,,,jiwa kacaw bile homesick ney,,

wuwuwu,,

harap2 camp tuh best n i'll survive it for 5 days,,

then,,mia Z!!!!!let partay!!!

untuk seketika cuma :(

plus plus,,bnyk gile assgment,,

and bnyak gile kene cop untuk upcoming test!!!

huwaaa,,,

baek x yah bg cuti en en,,

ouh yup,,satu lg,,

azam baru,,

haha,,tiap minggu tambah azam,,

boley jew en en,,

sy x mo tangguh keje dah!!!omg!!saket ok!!

rituh berjaya x tanguh report kimia n bio fisio,,

tp genetic td!!!huwaaa nyesal x wat hari rabu :(

so,,jgan tangguh2 k cik lala,,

study pown x mo last minit da,,

yeahh!!!!lets go azam baru!!!

ouh,,,tibe2 this week philophobia aku ilang!!!

ngek!!!

skejup jew dpat pnyakit tuh,,

bile slalu terserempak,,

haih,,mmg lah cik hati ini lemah,,

masalahnye bukan Brad Pitt atau Johnny Depp pown!!

budak pendek tuh jew pown,,

itu pown cik hati x dpat menahan dirinye sendiri,,

haih,,ney sume slah cik hati,,

lg2 time camp nati ney,,

haih berhati hati lah yer anda whai cik hati :)

sy percaya anda boley melakukannya cik hati !!!!

yeah cik hati marilah berusaha bersama!!!

okeee,,cukup membuktikan betapa aku gila ingin pulang ke pangkuaan mama n abah,,

ke pangkuaan tv LCD rumah kuh itu,,

ke pangkuann internet baek punye,,

ke pangkuaan katil empuk,,bilik comel,,hehe :p

ke pangkuaan masakan air tangan puan mama,,

ke pangkuaan gang Z!!!!

betapa nya,,BETAPA!!!

x pew,,at least aku dpat betapa dlam hutan kt Melaka tuh nati en -.-"

okee lah peeps,,

wish me luck,,

and pray that i survive the camp n my heart survive him,,

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p.s. hidup en en,,x mo susahkan org,,sbb bile ade org susahkan kite,,kite x suka en en,,yup lg satu azam baru,, :)

motivasi diri di pagi hari,,

hey ho people,,

okee,,mmg x abes2 opening camtuh enn,,

x pew,,,next post kte tuka okee,,

regarding to the title,,eceh ceh,,

ney sume penangan wat report smpai EMPAT dlam stu minggu,,

okee tipu,,minggu ney ade tiga jew,,

sbb kames rituh cuti,,

bile cuti x dew lab,,bile x dew lab n kelas,,kite ronggeng!!!!!

n bile ronggeng cik kiah,,cik kiah shopink!!!!

hooo ahhh!!!!!!

okeee,,,sudah lari jauh,,

berbalik pada tajuk yer people,,

motivasi diri di pagi hari,,

tp skunk da kul 1150,,,kire pagi ahh en en en??

okeee,,,pagi,,,

okeee,,,focus tajuk!!!focus!!!!

motivasi ney aku x dpat pg td time bgun pagi td,,

tp da lame,,cume amek mase pikey boley x ley aku wat bende ney,,

huwaaa,,,dye camm agak2 jatuh lah ego gunung Everest aku ney if aku follow motivasi ney,,

tp tp,,bile pkey balek,,ego gunung Everest ney x dpat panjat aku ke syurga pown,,

ewah ewah,,bg ayat budak baek siket ramai dah pitam baca,,

wahaha,,

bace tgok ape my motivasi neyh,,

dulu bg aku,,,sape2 ade buat palat,,buat celaka kat aku,,

dye comfirm2 akan dpat dua kali ganda palat yg dye campak kt aku,,

n mmg x dpat lupe ahh kan,,kire wajib revenge lah,,dlam lebih kejam dr yg aku dpat,,

contoh,,if ade org curik satu gula2 aku,,aku akan rosakkan lap top dye,,

OMG!!!!! haha,,,okeee,,,contoh itu adalah rekaan semata mata,,

sy tidak sekejam itu :)

dan sekarang nk tukar lah kire pandangan hidup itu,,

kepada,,

kalau anda ade rase2 nk bring me down or nk carik pasal,,or bahasa kasar baek punye kasar dye,,nk buat palat lah ngan sy ini,,

x pew,,sy x nk revenge da :)

kire sy try sabar sorg2,,even masih akan memaki hamun anda dlam hati sy,,tp cukup baek sbb sy x akan memaki hamun anda depan2 lg seperti selalu sy buat,,

dan sy akan reflect kenapalah anda sibuk2 nk buat palat ngan sy,,mungkin ada salah sy jugak,,

haaaaa,,,camtuh lah kire,,

yelah tahun baru kan,,,kire2 ini salah satu azam sy lah kire,,

x nk maen sembur je,,nah hamek ko sekilo kat muko ko,,tuh lah sape suro carik pasal ngan guwa,,

haa,,,,yg tuh dah x nak yer,,,kire2 if ade org maki sy depan2 pown,,sy akan berusaha bersenyum dan berlalu pergi tanpa kata2,,uisshhh!!!cam susah!!!!x pew try!!!try!!!

n lg satu motivasi diri adalah menjadi garang terhadap kaum2 bukan sejenis ini,,

kecuali encik babah tercinta,,

hehe,,sy akan bermanja2 bercomel2 dgan my gf jew n of coz ngan puan mama tercyg :)

kepada incik2 boys yg laen,,sy adlah mule menjafi garang,,

even before pown da garank,,skunk makin garank!!!!melutop letop garang nyer,,

x dew belas kasihan,,wahaha,,

kerana,,adalah sy tidak mahu dipermainkan dan dipijak2 lg oleh incik2 sekalian,,

harap maklum,,

okee,,,

itu saja,,

sy lapar,,mama n babah sile menghadirkan diri di koloej ini dgan segera,,

anak anda sedang merindui lg lapar,,

okeee lah people,,

have a good Sunday!!!

ttyl,,

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p.s. mmg panjang,,mmg x dew org bace lah,,haha,,aku pown pening nk bace lek,,

its Philophobia,,

guess im having this fear,,

its alright ayte,,

for having this phobia,,

will make me more happy,,

then let it be,,

people say,,fall out of bridge hurt less than fall out of love,,

i strongly agree with that say,,

its not that i have ever fall out of bridge,,

but the scar we got from a heartbreak is impossible to be wound than the scar we got from a cut,,

another people say,,

it worth the risk,,to fall in love,,

the hurt is worth the sweetness,,the tears is worth the company,,

for me,,nothing worth,,once you hurt,,its unbearable,,

even the sweetest thing may hurt someday,,

so better just stay out of it,,

:)

ouh and today,,

i strongly lost trust in love between girl and boy,,

lost interest,,lost faith in it,,

i do not trust love no more :)

for me,,love is when the whole world sparkle with happiness,,

but if there is someone somewhere in the corner of the world feel hurt,,

than its not love,,

love is to bring sunshine,,not tears of pain,,

but hye,,

this of coz have exceptional,,

my philophobia does not include,,

love towards ALLAH,,

love towards Rasulullah,,

love towards Islam,,

love towards mama n abah,,

love towards the nature,,the animals,,

love towards bangsa n negara,,

and love towards my dearest friends,,

i'll never lost hope,,lost trust and lost faith

in those love,,

cause i believe,,these are love that bring joy and not pain,,

:)

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p.s. its ok to lost one love and have so much love backing it up :)

bebelan kosong sahaja :)

hey ho people,,

:)

great day today??

mine was ok,,

mlam ney ade class lg,,

tp masih gembira,,

da lame x membebel dlam blog enn,,

well,,

basically,,nothing to bebel pown,,

hehe,,

malas suda mawu berblog,,

mood itu sudah suram lah,,

hari2 yg mendatang sama saje,,

ade kejutan,,ade tekanan,,ade senyuman,,

tp yg pasti hari2 ini pada semester baru ini,,

pada tahun baru ini,,bnyak ketawa nya,,

bnyak gembiranye,,

:)

cume pernah satu mlam berderai tangis,,

satu mlam dan tiada berlarutan sudah,,

haha,,

bg ayat skema ala2 dramatik siket,,

senang cite,,

sem baru,,aku da mule napak semangat baru tuh berputik dlam jiwa raga bakul aku ney,,

study bhaii,,

dulu,,mlam2 mane pena selak nota,,

selagi x final,,or slagi esok x test,,

slagi tuh ahh note ko dlam beg,,terperam bagai pekasam,,

skrg kite tuka lah sistem siket,,

tgok berhasil x,,

insyallah,,

ade satu bnde lg aku nk ubah,,

itu bia lah diri sendiri yg thu :)

ade org kate,,

sy x emosi lg,,

hehehehe,,

mesti sbb da x dew post2 emosi dah kan,,

gembira kah anda wahai readers??

hehe,,thanx sbb gembira atas kegembiraan sy,,

time kacih :)

ouh,,nati if rajin,,

IF,,nk upload gmbr kt Genting,,

wooohh,,,sonok woooh!!!!

all those thrill rides make me feel like im a Wonder Woman!!!

yeahhh!!!!no hal ahhh,,

takat roller coaster,,

ape de hal,, *padahal tutup2 mata smbil tekup muke kat bahu Anis*

jd,,konklusi nye,,

gang Z,,bile mawu pergi bersama??

marilah,,marilah,,

hehe,,

okee lah,,

nk rest,,

take care people,,

tata,,

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p.s. mungkin x lg berluahan di sini,,berluahan di tumblr saja,,tuh pown da dew bende nk diluahkn,,kerana gembira skang,,hehe,,sedey jew luah2 kt blog,,time hepi simpan sendiri sudah,,wahaha :p

the only child,,

hye there people,,

regarding to the title,,

may i warn you,,

this post is about science,,

so if you think its lame or boring,,

you may F off now,,

thank you,,

ok,,for those who stay,,

thanx :)

ok,,fyi,,

im the only child,,

the one and only yaww!!!!

well,,since im a biology student,,

i've been wondering,,if this the only child thingie is an inheritance,,

since my mum was the only child her self,,

and we,,me and my mum having the same blood type (of coz lah kan)

but its rare,,its O-

yup,,

genetically,,this only child thingie might be an inheritance,,

its all due the blood type,,

the negative factor from the O blood type was coming from the Rh factor,,

this Rh factor is actually the antigen contain in the surface of our blood cell,,

there are Rh positive and Rh negative,,

to make it simple,,

when a Rh positive blood enter a body with Rh negative blood,,

the antibodies will produce AntiRh+ and will destroy the blood,,

in my case,,

my mum is a Rh negative blood,,while my dad is a heterozygous Rh positive,,

when fertilization take place,,

1/4 of the child may produce is with Rh negative blood,,

if the mother was pregnant a child with a positive Rh blood factor,,

the mother antibody will destroy the fetal blood as it see the fetal as a dangerous object to its body,,this may cause abortion,,if the child survive,,the child may having some serious medical complication,,like anemia due to lack of red blood cell,,

and to make it short,,

only the child with negative Rh blood factor will survive the pregnancy,,

as the fetal and the mother have a common blood factor,,

the body won't detect the fetal as a dangerous strangers to the body,,

well,,in my case,,

my mum was struggling to have child,,

before me,,my mum had abortion about two times already,,

this may be because 75% of her fetal is with positive Rh blood factor,,

and,,finally after 8 years of trying,,

i was born,,the only 25% chances was at last working,,

Thank ALLAH,,

even its only 25% of hopes,,it still happens,,and im here now,,

living for almost 21 years old now :)

thanks mama,,and im so sorry for all the trouble for having me,,

but hye,,this problem may be solve now days,,

the scientist did find a cure to this special factor,,

well,,go Google it your self ayte,,

dun be lazy k,,

hehe,,ouh yup,,genetic is an interesting subject,,

it helps you to be grateful,,

ouh no,,

not only genetic,,but the whole Biology did makes you thanks for this life,,

the miracle of life,,and the mighty-ness of its creator,,

thanks HIM,,Alhamdulillah,,

be grateful people,,and have a nice weekend :)

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p.s. i am the only girl in this world,,hehe,,at least in my parents world :')

dear Aizzah,,

Aizzah,,

kite dua2 ney sengal kan,,

org tuh da bg tawu awal2 da kan,,

kite jew lmbat sedar kan,,

he said this to you,,

"not to trust any guys,,including me"

just like what that pendek said to me,,

"jangan percaya lelaki 100% lala,,termasuk lah aku"

haih,,

dorg da bg tawu awal2 kan,,

so kite yg g trust dorg tuh apahal kn,,

dorg x salah lah kire kan??

hahaha,,

bullshit lah,,

lelaki same jew,,

ayat pown same,,

perangai lg lah,,

F them,,

lets move on jijah ku syg,,

i da nk berjaya ney,,meh meh,,

ok girls,,

nak smbung bace Genetic (konon2)

ttyl

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p.s. minggu kedua mmg lah sngt bersemangat,,x tawu lah ape jd pd bulan kedua kan,,x pew marilah bersemangat berstudy!!!

nothing but a big THANKS :)

thanks dear friends,,

for the therapy sessions,,

for the shoulder to cry on,,

for the comfort,,

for the advice,,

for the mock you girls throw at him to make me feel better,,

for the support,,

for the smile you girls put right after those tears,,

for the fingers that shed away my tears,,

for having my back for me,,stand up for me,,

for being there,,when he walk away,,

for listening to the same crap every day,,

for accompany me when im drown in my tears,,

for the pat on the shoulder when you girls see the tears in my eyes,,

for the courage,,the new hope,,

thanks dear girlfriends,,

thanks a lot,,

for EVERYTHING,,

i love you girls,,

always have,,always will

aizzah,atiqah,diyana,athirah,aina,hazlin,haziqah,anis,zahira,farahana,azyan,ain,suhaina,rohana,

p.s. biggest thanks for UNDERSTAND me,,i would never make it without you girls,,i cant live without your support :) sumpah syg korg sangt :)

grenade,,

"i'll catch the grenade for ya,,

throw my hand on a blade for ya,,

i'll jump in front of the train for ya,,

you know i'll do anything for you,,

i would go through all this pain,,

take the bullet straight to my brain,,

yes,i would die for you baby,,

but you won't do the same"

Grenade by Bruno Mars

if there is a boy willing to do all these,,

catch the grenade and all,,

or at least willing to sing this song sincerely,,

and actually mean it,,

i want him to know that i'll definitely will do the same,,

i'll definitely catch the grenade for him,,

definitely,,

to love somebody who willing to love you as much as this lyrics do,,

i DEFINITELY will catch the fcking grenade,,

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p.s. totally immersed in this song,,and how i wish if Bruno Mars is handsome,,but he's not =.=" so yup,,,just go crazy over his song and not him,,haha :p

screw the stalkers!!!

yeah,,

screw em'

srew you stalkers!!!

idgaf anymore,,

stalk all you want,,

and talk it all behind my back,,

idfc,,

i cant believes i actually change my precious url just to hide from you people,,

how that makes me such a loser,,

so hye,,

here you go,,

stalk it,,judge it,,hate it,,

i dun care,,

i dun effin' care no more,,

fullstop.

p.s. to dear readers,,im truly sorry :)

self note,,

i realize today,,

i dun wanna waste any more time,,

i dun wanna wait any more,,

lets burn all the hopes into ashes,,

i have bigger thing to chase,,

i dun wanna be the average people anymore,,

i want more,,

i wanna give more to the parents,,

so,,i think,,i dun wanna make you one of my dream or hope,,no more

its fun being fool around,,

but once you wake up,,

you'll realize,,nothing is fun about it,,

nothing,,being played,,being used,,

it hurt,,not fun,,

azam baru lah weyh jom,,

S T U D Y hard,,effin' hard,,

and never give a F to anything or anyone beside ur study,,

yeah,,come on azam baru!!!

maybe i've always gonna have a thing for you,,

but let that thing buried deep inside my heart,,

till i cant even remember it anymore,,

so yup,,

membebel no more,,

mari lah menaikkan pointer!!!

and nyte nyte people :)

hope you guys have a good day tomorrow ;p

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p.s. only a happy peaceful heart can heal a broken heart :)

perihal encik Chemistry,,

dear encik Chemistry,,

anda anda,,,kenapa??

kenapa anda dtg semula dlam hidup sy??

setelah DUA TAHUN kte berpisah,,

tanpa sebarang nota,,

tanpa sebarang janji,,

tp hari ini,,anda muncul kembali,,

kenapa sekarang encik Chemistry??

setelah dua tahun sy senang berkaseh syg dgan Mr. Biology,,

kenapa anda perlu jd org ketiga dlam hubungan kami whai encik Chemistry,,

otak sy dah tepu dgan nota2 cinta dan ilmu2 dr Mr. Biology,,

wlaupun x penah dekan,,tp sy ttp sygkan Mr. Biology sy,,

anda dgan Lithium lah,,electron lah,,

huwaaa,,,mmg bisa pernah di dengar kata2 itu,,

anda dgan Groups anda lah,,Bonding lah,,

sy x tahu encik Chemistry,,

skrang dlam hati sy penuh dgan name2 scientific haiwan & tumbuhan,,

penuh dgan xylem phloem cell nucleus,,

penuh dgan Mr. Biology!!!

sy x tahu lah mampukah sy kembali mengigati cinta kita dahulu,,

sy dah ada Mr. Biology,,humm,,

x pew,,sy cube k,,

okeee,,drama tamat disini,,

grrrrrr!!!!!!

knapa lah kan org2 bijak kt UPM ney susun jadual akademik aku cmney??

huwaaa,,,da 2 thun x jenguk lngsung psal Chemistry,,

ade lah usha dak Chemistry jew,,buku Chemistry x pena lak usha!!!

then tetibe jew kene blaja lek,, T.T

demn!!!

electrochemistry bgai,,

adoii,,dah ahh fizikal punya,,kalu organik x pew g,,

dan 4 jam kredit!!!!!

ouh emmm geeee~

ape nk wat ney??

adoii lah,,

:(

sem 4,,marilah berbaek baek dgan sy yer cik sem 4,,

anda cantek sngt cik sem 4,,

marilah kite berdekan yer,,

x pown atas lah dr 3.2!!!

yer cik sem 4 yer,,

finee,,,im going crazy on the 1st day of the semester!!

all thanx to you encik Chemistry,,x lupe jgak cik Genetic yg kelihatan dan kedengaran sperti susah untuk memenangi A nye,,

marilah berusaha,,

nak pointer naek,,nakkkkkk!!!!!

okee,,nk pegi mkan,,

ttyl,,

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p.s. x tawu drama ape lak akan dtg if encik Physic lak dtg nati,,adoii,,dah 5 thun tinggal kan encik Physic tuh!!!5 tahun okeee!!! :(